It has been months of preparation, planning and emotions but today was a first for me. I started to have second thoughts or thoughts of regret. I know, I was surprised too. Up until today I had some mixed feelings here and there, but none ever the way I felt today.
Now you may be asking yourself “What in the world happened to make me feel this way.” I bet you would never guess it, not even in a hundred years. Now that I’ve peaked your interest, it was Home Depot. Yep, of all things/places, Home Depot left me nostalgic and a feeling of why am I leaving.
See, I have spent a lot of time fixing up my home over the last 3 years and it has always made me happy. I have also spent a lot of time in my courtyard making it green, full of life and beautiful. I went to Home Depot today because it is so hot that it is killing all of my foliage and I needed to get my plants some food. When I walked in to the Home Depot nursery tears started to flow to my eyes and it was nearly impossible to hold them back. “What was I thinking?” “What about my plants?” “What about my courtyard?” “I won’t be able to have this sense of pride and ownership on the road.” That’s only a few of the things that rolled through my mind and within seconds the thought of staying and not selling my home came flooding over me.
Needless to say I got what I needed and got out of there right away. It wasn’t my normal lolly gagging around the flowers, imagining where I could put them, what I could build or what else I could improve on my house. It was a get in and get out situation. This may be the last time I will be going in to Home Depot and with that, I bid you farewell Home Depot.
I’m 2 weeks away from my house closing and I’m guessing over the next 2 weeks I am going to experience this feeling at least a couple more times. What I want you to know is it is normal. There are going to be tons of times that you are overwhelmed with feelings. Feelings you don’t even know how to explain but you have to remember the important thing. You’re “Why”. Why are you doing this? Why are you choosing to go on the road full time? When you have your answer, hold on to it. The important thing to remember is that the things we keep holding on to are only things. They can be replaced and they will be replaced. You’re freedom and experiences are things that can not be replaced. These are the things we need to learn to hold truly dear to our hearts in this consumer driven economy.